So remember when I told y'all I'm on this debt-free journey and I'm giving up my car to help it?
Well, update:
As the date to give up my car (August 14) draws closer and closer, I've been starting to stress out and have major separation anxiety. I've had my car on lease for four years which, sadly, is longer than my longest romantic relationship! How could I give up something I've had for that long?! Plus, if I gave up my car, I'd have to take the train, and this bourgie babe has not commuted daily on a train in 9 years. How the heck would I even do that?
I was stressed, confused, anxious and worried.
I started hearing all these sermons about fasting and I kept seeing the words, "Be still and know that I am God" (Psalm 46:10). I figured all these little reminders and my current anxiety level was God calling me into a fast to just spend time in His presence.
So I fasted. And I told God I would be still and know that He is God in every area of my life. For several days I just ate fruits and veggies and drank water and almond milk. And I prayed. And I cried. And I was still.
And, y’all, God came through.
The day after my fast my father came to visit me and ask what I planned to do about my car. Still unsure, I rattled off a bunch of options. As I was rambling my dad said, “How about I give you some money to buy a car?”
“Um, excuse me, what? What did you just say? It sounded like you said you were going to give me money to buy a car, but I just wanted to make sure that’s what you actually said.”
“Yeah, do you need more money or is that enough?”
Mouth. Wide. Open.
God moved my father’s heart to offer me money and I didn’t have to do anything. I didn’t have to beg. I didn’t have to borrow. I just had to be still and know He is God.
So that was one miracle. And since I’m being still and knowing He is God, I know He’s not a God of only one miracle. He’s a God of exceedingly, abundantly above all I can ask or think” (Ephesians 3:20). So of course, there was another miracle.
I went to the mailbox and saw I had a letter from Navient, the devil, my student loan creditor. I opened it and instead of the bill I anticipated, there was a refund check from Navient stating I had overpaid my student loan, so they were giving me money back. My creditor was crediting me. “Um, excuse me, what?”
And all this by just being still and knowing He is God. All of this from doing nothing but taking my cares to the Lord. All of this from His hand not mine.
Now I have money to buy my car, the ability to continue my debt-free journey and a testimony of God’s favor. These are the kinds of updates I love to give.
Lourdes Anita