Based on Whose Thinking?

Is it just me or is there something about getting older that sobers your thinking and makes you question, "Am I on the right track?" Well, that's exactly where I am as I recently turned 34. I've been evaluating everything through the lens:

"Do I think this is the right career?"

"Do I think these are the right friendships?"

"Do I think this is the right man?"

And as I've been evaluating, I've realized there are some areas where I've been stuck because of that lens. Whether or not the person, place or thing was right for my life, I've held on to him, there or it because he's, there's, it's been here for so long or he's, there's, it's been what I've thought was right for my life. It's all been based on my own thinking.

But lately God has been challenging me with the questions,

"Do I think he, there, it is right for your life?"

"Are you on the right track based on MY will?"

And those are far different questions. My thinking has to be based on God's perspective, so now I have to evaluate everything through the lens of,"What does God think about him, there, it?".

And as I evaluate life through this lens, there are some people, places and things I would have let go of because of my own thinking, but based on God's thinking, I actually need to keep in my life. But then there are some other people, places and things I would have kept because of my own thinking, but I actually need to let go from my life.

And what makes the difference is seeking God's wisdom to know the difference. I have to acknowledge Him in those questions, knowing that He will direct my path and give me His answers (Proverbs 3:6).

So as I get older and asking the sobering question, "Am I on the right track," I now know the "track" has to be based on His thinking and not on my own.

Lourdes Anita